the future, wouldn't that be nice?

I have been thinking a thing.

There is a funny thing we do as humans which is think about ourselves so much. And why wouldn't we, because we see each other and the world and ourselves through our own eyes and brains, so I suppose it makes sense we spend so much time within our own thoughts. But I wonder, if we're all thinking about ourselves so much of the time and then still manage to occupy thinking space with all the other things there are to think about in life as well as people we care about, then perhaps there isn't much room left to think of ways to intentionally be mean? At least that's what I hope. Because I think in a little world where we find ourselves connected to lots of different people anyway, amplified with THE INTERNET where you can see all your friends doing exciting things (and crafts!), then it's easy to be totally aware of all the fun things it seems everyone but you are doing. But I think that is okay because can anyone do everything all the time? (the answer is no). Plus I think usually we're all so concerned with what we are doing that there isn't much energy left over to exclude. And if there is, well then some kind of an ass hat you turn out to be.

I for one, am not especially clever or witty. I don't have foreign adventures in foreign countries and I do love television. I buy mostly cheap shoes and all the cakes I know how to make come straight out of boxes...so I figure I'm not a particularly interesting or cool person. I think that I laugh a lot and seem friendly enough and really, really love people, so I have managed to make some interesting and clever friends throughout the years. I love my little life because I like being uninteresting and watching John and Kate Plus Eight while drinking a Big Gulp. I get to see my clever friends and my cool family with lots of regularity and I have so much fun because often we're eating food or someone is telling funny jokes and my tummy hurts from laughing. So while sometimes I have seen fun events on the internet or heard through others about fun events and felt a little sad I didn't know about it, never have I thought other people might feel the same way about me sometimes...because you know, mostly boring here.

Which is why I brought up my first point that I think people are busy enough in their own lives cultivating fulfilling relationships to spend any time making sure someone else isn't being liked; mostly people are nice and maybe sometimes forgetful. I mean, don't get me wrong, I can be a total jerk sometimes (ask all of my friends from high school about when they got boyfriends, or ask anyone who has stood in line with me at Cafe Rio), but I'm not trying to be a jerk...and my guess is, neither are you. Right?