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Some things...

I mentioned previously that Aaron is still in New York for the rest of the week. And get ready to vomit, but I realized we haven't been apart longer than 3 days since December of 2008 and today I really feel it. I'm used to depending on him and looking forward to seeing his perfect face at the end of the day and having him fall asleep next to me. I miss him.

But then...I've remembered how much I like myself alone. I enjoyed single me so much and waking up in my bed alone and making plans alone reminds me of her and I like for just one week remembering that her me.

New York and it's life stirred up something inside me that had gotten too sleepy and comfortable and I'm thankful for the inspiration.

The last few evening have been full of thought and meaningful conversations (and The Bachelorette) with women friends I love...I'm lucky to be surrounded by so many smarts and careers, and creatives and pregnants and wives and PhDs and moms; all as inspiring as that city that never sleeps.

I know some hearts that have recently been broken/are breaking. Talking about it the other night I realized it's been a long while now since the last time mine was and I had to work to remember the feeling. But then a Facebook thread yesterday brought this song to my mind and I could immediately remember the feeling.

I know marrieds are sometimes frustrating to singles cus you just forget. You forget the places you aren't anymore. You don't mean to, but everybody does it...grown ups and teens, depresseds and happys, richies and poories, believers and other belief believers. But somebody is always in the places you aren't. So I'll think more about the places I'm not.